We’ve changed. Almost 3 years of dating and we are so far from the people we used to be. I’ve always been a pretty independent person. I like to do things myself and prove that I’m strong enough or capable enough. When Isaac and I first started dating I would get mad when he would try to do things for me or help me with things. He would then usually get frustrated too because he was raised to be a gentleman in those ways. He thought he had to help me. We were both wrong. Our entire relationship, while chocked FULL of beautiful mercies from God and loads of wisdom passed on to us from others, doesn’t hardly touch what God has taught us so far in our engagement season. I’m praying harder to respect him regardless of whose right or wrong, serve him selflessly to lift him up and submit to the role and authority God has given him with respect sewn through and through. Girls get mad at me sometimes and say I can’t let a man control my life. Have you ever tried submitting to a man guided by the creator of the universe though? It’s not losing control. It’s surrendering it to our Lord and Savior. It’s freedom. Nobody’s making me, but God’s calling me. I want to lift him up. I respect Isaacs role as the man in the relationship because I understand now that the things he tries to help me with or do for me are coming straight from the role God designed him to be in. It’s not because I can’t. It’s because he loves me, and he loves Him, so he will ❤️ The way God designed relationships is so much more complex and meaningful than pride or feminism. We are across the country right now from each other not because either one of us is greater or less, but because God is bigger. I’m blessed to hold that ragged hand 💕
As most of you know, on September 2nd, 2017 Isaac asked me for forever… and then I tackled him (that means yes when you’re happy). Even after 2 1/2 years he surprised the heck out of me. It was the happiest moment of our lives.
Ever since then I’ve had this super shiny thing on my left hand. To be honest, I’m not a big jewelry person, at least not to wear every day. Jewelry usually just gets in the way of stuff, especially when I’m with the horses. It was SO weird to me to all of a sudden have this thing on my finger 24/7. I would wake up and immediately pull my hand out of the covers because I thought there was something stuck to it… no joke I did that for like 2 weeks. Every time I tacked the horse up I would look at it ever 5 seconds to make sure it didn’t get messed up or dirty. I was so nervous about it!
Despite my efforts, the poor ring got a full dose of dirt, alfalfa, horse hair and life very quickly. I thought it would be hard for me trying to care for something so precious in the midsts of my crazy life. Then one day as I was driving, staring at my ring propped up on the steering wheel, God made it very clear to me. This ring is not a piece of jewelry. It’s not to be admired because it’s shiny or expensive. It’s to be admired because it’s to be a representation of our relationship. It’s to be cared for because it stands for our commitment to each other. I don’t want to show people my ring and say hey look how fancy. I want to show it to people and say hey look what God has done in our lives. Look at where He has brought us. This ring reminds me every day to consider how the things I do and the decisions I make will affect our relationship. It’s priceless to me the things that God has made our relationship into and I absolutely adore having the proof on my finger every day of all that He has done.
I love this ring. I love that Isaac picked it out himself and poured so much love, time and work in to getting it. It’s BEAUTIFUL. Mostly though I love the story behind it. It’s our story in the most real, true and pure form written with all the beauty of the hand of God. In this sweet sweet season of our lives I’m blessed to have this reminder on my finger, this man that I love fervently beside me, family and friends that are family to pour into and support us and a great big God who keeps surprising us.
Here’s to a love story without end ❤